haha so i finally came to terms with my stupid jelousy over an actress last night. I dont think i wanted to admit i was jelouse, because to tell you the truth, it makes me feel sorta stupid. Doesn't it sound stupid to be jelouse of a girl your boyfriend tells you is hot but he probably wont ever see her in real life? So ya i feel pretty stupid.

I think my problem is that i don't like having my boyfriend tell me some other girl is hot or whatever. So ya now im possessive and jelouse. woooo.....Gah now im just sputing bullshit excuses.

And i hope he never feels bad, because he can think any girl he wants is hot, dont get me wrong, but i just wish he didn't say it out loud kinda is a blow to my ego. lol.

Oh well, he always find a way to make me laugh and turn it around and boost my ego back up so i guess it is okayish.. expecially when he does this cute interpretation that always makes me smile (even when i hide my face so he can't see).

Aw, now i feel bad because i don't want him to think i am mad or amything. I mean. i really really love him to death, and i wouldn't want somthing stupid like my jelousy to make anything harder.

Well, if he reads this he is either going to think im cute for being jelouse or he is not going to be happy with me because i wrote about it in my journal...